Blues, Clutter, and Impending Doom

I haven’t been posting because I haven’t had the motivation to. Depression sucks. I lost my main client so only work 2 hours a week right now. Apparently, I am the type of person who is fulfilled when I go to work.

I am trying to get out of this slump. It is hard because K is usually the one to help pull me out of this. Since he was put on third shift, he has been pretty depressed too. Do you know how horrible it is to have two depressed people in one couple? For one thing, our house is a cluttered mess right now. Neither one of us wants to clean. We just do enough so that our house isn’t dirty. The clutter is starting to drive me crazy.

I now have some motivation to get things taken care of. Satan’s handmaiden, a.k.a. my mother-in-law, is coming up for Frick’s high school graduation this Friday. I hate when she comes to visit. It puts so much stress on our marriage that we fight so bad someone mentions divorce. Any other time, our marriage is pretty good. The occasional fight that is resolved within a day is about the worst that it gets.

I’m just ready for this month to be over with. I need something to look forward to.